Always the Almost Book

Always The Almost Book

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Reading level - 12 - 18 years.

A trans pianist makes a New Year's resolution on a frozen Wisconsin night to win regionals and win back his ex, but a new boy complicates things in Edward Underhill's heartfelt debut YA rom-dram, Always the Almost.

Sixteen-year-old trans boy Miles Jacobson has two New Year's resolutions: 1) win back his ex-boyfriend (and star of the football team) Shane McIntyre, and 2) finally beat his slimy arch-nemesis at the Midwest's biggest classical piano competition. But that's not going to be so easy. For one thing, Shane broke up with Miles two weeks after Miles came out as trans, and now Shane's stubbornly ignoring him, even when they literally bump into each other. Plus, Miles' new, slightly terrifying piano teacher keeps telling him that he's playing like he "doesn't know who he is"--whatever that means.

Then Miles meets the new boy in town, Eric Mendez, a proudly queer cartoonist from Seattle who asks his pronouns, cares about art as much as he does--and makes his stomach flutter. Not what he needs to be focusing on right now. But after Eric and Miles pretend to date so they can score an invite to a couples-only Valentine's party, the ruse turns real with a kiss, which is also definitely not in the plan. If only Miles could figure out why Eric likes him so much. After all, it's not like he's cool or confident or comfortable in his own skin. He's not even good enough at piano to get his fellow competitors to respect him, especially now, as Miles. Nothing's ever been as easy for him as for other people--other boys. He's only ever been almost enough.

So why, when he's with Eric, does it feel like the only person he's ever really not been enough himself?

"Exuberant...building nuanced characters with relatable problems, high emotional stakes, and earnest first love, Underhill delivers a delightful triumph."
Publishers Weekly (starred)

"A warm, optimistic transgender coming-of-age and queer romance."
Kirkus Reviews

"Filled with sparkling joy, tender hope, and resounding heart, Always the Almost is an ode to finding yourself, your people, and your own power."
Adib Khorram, award-winning author of Darius the Great Is Not Okay

"Always the Almost is a warm-hearted coming of age story about the complexities of friendship, romance, and overcoming adversity both on and off the stage. A virtuosic masterpiece."
Phil Stamper, bestselling author of As Far as You'll Take Me

"Deeply witty, romantic, authentic, and above all, triumphant. Edward Underhill is unquestionably a debut to watch."
Dahlia Adler, author of Cool for the Summer

"An unapologetic story of a trans boy finding love that never shies away from just how messy love can be; this stunning debut made me laugh and then broke my heart into pieces before putting it all back together again."
Mason Deaver, national bestselling author of I Wish You All the Best and The Ghosts We Keep


Author Edward Underhill
Format Hardback
Pages 320
ISBN 9781250835208


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